Sara, I know only too well how desperate and alone you must be feeling. I have struggled with manic depression for years now and I attempted to end it all in November. Please, just take it all day by day. Talk with people on here. You can add me to msn, pm me, anything. Just please keep yourself occupied.
I don't know the ins and outs of your situation, but professional help along with caring friends can do wonders. Please, try to fight this. That is all I ask, just for you to try a little bit more. x
~ The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step ~
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