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Old March 19th, 2007, 04:51 PM  
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Join Date: February 25, 2007
Location: 513
Age: 28
Gender: Female
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It has recently come to my attention, though I should have realised it before, that my self-destructive behavior is exeedingly painful for others to see or know about. I've made my ex cry, and another girl cry, because of what I do. I hate knowing that I hurt them, and that I continue to hurt them. I don't really know what to do anymore. I don't know why I keep doing this. I really don't. I try to stop, but it's become an addiction for me. I recently broke down and told my school counselor about it... he said I needed to get proffesional help or he'd have to call my parents and tell them. I avoid him like the plague now.

This isn't so much as a cry for help, as it is an apology. I know I caused some people on here to worry about what I was doing. I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen. I honestly didn't expect any of you to give two shits about it. Just read it and reply telling me it's not worth it, but no. Someone here actually bothered to IM me and talk to me about it. That person bothered to get my phone number and call me when I told them I was going to slit my throat. Someone did care.

So I'm sorry for worrying anyone. I'm going to try to get help. I'm going to do what I can to stop this. I don't want to die so young, well, I do. But not like this. Not knowing that I caused atleast one person to shed a single tear over my worthless body.

Thanks, though, for those of you who haven't completely given up on me.
I'll do better, I promise

I, Sara Elaine, will live a full life and be happy. And NOT kill herself

Now that we're done, I'm so sorry
Why did I lie, I'm so sorry
I know I hurt you
I know I hurt you
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