For some reason I feel like cutting again, but I dont know why. Everything is going great, my new medicene is working great, people are telling me they can see the difference and I feel it too. But for some reason I want to fuck it up and hurt myself. I cant think of a reason why I would want to screw up the one thing that is finally going right in my life. The only thing that I can come up with is that if I lose the depression and cutting addiction that maybe I wont be me anymore, or that I dont know how to live without it after having it for so long. I need someone to help me through this, I cant screw this up now, Ill disappoint everyone and most of all myself.
I DO NOT GO ON HERE ANYMORE. I HAVE LEFT THIS PLACE FOR GOOD AND DON'T INTEND ON COMING BACK. PLEASE DON'T FRIEND REQUEST ME, PRIVATE MESSAGE ME, OR ANYTHING BECAUSE I WILL NEVER SEE IT AND YOU'LL NEVER GET A RESPONSE. THANK YOU.