im sorry your having a hard time
but please dont cut!
you will regret it/
you need to find something that interests you.
im doing a 3d modeling program called anim8or its fun and it reall helps with my anxeity and stress cause itrs something i look forward to doing.
it may not be the right hobbie for you but you need to find the thing that makes you happy to come home from school and do.
i know it can be hard to find but you will find it!
hang in there