Ok you haven't cut in awhile thats goood!
i know its hard having someone that your in love with so close but yet so far away, its hard but you have to move one if she doesn't love you back its hard but you have to do it.
as for cutting her name into you skin. please dont do that you will regret it.
but you not going crazy you just in a hard spot.
please hang in there!!
if you want to talk pm me