I understand that you feel like all of those things, I can come up with a list like that for myself as well;;
Sarcastic, annoying, lazy, obsessive, confused, boring, weird, crazy, depressed, suicidal, mean, ugly, fat, alone, different, loner, dark, uninteresting, stupid, hateful, self-loathing, self-harming, fearful, paranoid, distracted, i push all the people that love me away, i like the weirdest things, im miss understood/i dont even understand myself, i cant seem to do anything right...the list goes on.
But saying all of that stuff doesnt help matters, just makes you feel more down on yourself. Dont think so much of the negative things!
I DO NOT GO ON HERE ANYMORE. I HAVE LEFT THIS PLACE FOR GOOD AND DON'T INTEND ON COMING BACK. PLEASE DON'T FRIEND REQUEST ME, PRIVATE MESSAGE ME, OR ANYTHING BECAUSE I WILL NEVER SEE IT AND YOU'LL NEVER GET A RESPONSE. THANK YOU.