Things have not been great these past few months.
I met my best online friend ever. That was good. I have a lot going for me as far as life, academics goes. I'm still lonely though. I'm really depressed all the time. I feel like no matter how hard i try, i will always be alone and i will never be loved.
I'm not cutting, i never did that often anyways. I think i should begin though. not deep cuts, im not addicted. but i have no outlet for my sorrow. its just me and my labtop. i want to go out and do something with my life. but i cant pull out of this. i feel like im in a glob of jello and im just here. I can't be austin ever again. I'm really sad.