Re: Non Self Harm Calendar!
I didn't think I would post for a while... but I am now because it's getting hard again. Two days ago, it was early morning, and... I just wanted to so badly. And that urge has continued through today even. I'm better than relapsing. And I don't want to self-harm. I have too many scars. But another part of me says, "Screw it." I just want to bleed, I need it.
And I'm sorry I didn't build your walls. And I'm sorry I had to go and fall.
And I'm sorry I had the whole thing wrong. Well, I guess I'm the sorriest of all.
And I'm sorry that you are feeling small. And I'm sorry that I'm not used to crawling.
And I'm sorry the writing's on the wall. Well, I guess I'm the sorriest of all.