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Old December 20th, 2006, 07:25 PM  
schrei jess
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Join Date: October 5, 2006
Age: 25
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Default Realization

No one on the outside can see
see those scars for what they really are
her laughter and smiles are nothing but lies
because on the inside she cries

did you ever wonder why she looked so drained
she was up all night searching for a way to escape
she couldn’t stop until she found it again
it was then that she knew she was actually insane

had no idea what she would do without it
lost the one thing she had come to use
searching until she found a new blade
took it to her bed and that was where she stayed

burning pain was all she wanted to feel
she knew she would do anything to feel it once more
after that night was when she finally knew
that what they were saying was not untrue

addicted is what I am she said to herself
I am no longer in control of what is going on
this is controlling her, it always was
everyone sees it, but she never has

---I wrote this a while ago, just found it on the computer now. I wrote it about the night I lose my pocket knife and was digging around my messy room for hours trying to find it so I could just cut again, never found it but I looked for so long that I found an exacto blade...pathetic. I knew then for sure I had a problem.

I DO NOT GO ON HERE ANYMORE. I HAVE LEFT THIS PLACE FOR GOOD AND DON'T INTEND ON COMING BACK. PLEASE DON'T FRIEND REQUEST ME, PRIVATE MESSAGE ME, OR ANYTHING BECAUSE I WILL NEVER SEE IT AND YOU'LL NEVER GET A RESPONSE. THANK YOU.
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