Re: please read.
If you continue to use drugs, you always gonna feel like this if not worse, for you have an addictive personality. I know this from your coping skills, and the only way to feel good the majority of the time is if you do positive things the majority of the time. Browse the internet for alternative hobbies, or something, what you are doing is not good and will make you feel like shit no matter what. Right now your seeking for an alternative "high", and this kind of thinking will get you into a lot of trouble, trust me.