I feel like shit.
me and my friends & my boyfriend were drinking last night.
& he was really drunk [i wasnt yet] & started flirting with one of my best friends.
& then he whispers in my ear
"wanna have a threesome?"
we've only been going out for like two weeks.
NO I DONT.
it ruined my whole night, i was so depressed
& then he was really drunk & was pushing me away & went & passed out on the couch.
so i went outside in a t-shirt [really drunk by this time]
& broke down in tears.
i dont even know why.
& my ex boyfriend & really good friend comes out & starts trying to talk me out of killing myself.
& then i cut myself in the washroom for the first time in a while.
& i'm fucking stupid.
i cried the whole way home on the subway.
& planned on killingmyself last night but i passed out.
fuck. i cant keep doing this, i havnt found a way to cope in 4 years and nothing seems to help.
i feel like shit,
my boyfriend just called me apoligizing (i dont know for what part of last night though)
& he asked me if i dont like him anymore.
& i told him i'm not upset because of you.
witch is half true.
i'm upset becuase of how insecure i am.