I don't know where the right place to put this, so you moderators can move it if you like, but i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who replied with suggestions. I went to the doctor, I do have depression, and I am doing pretty well in treatment, I am taking Zoloft, which is an anti-depressant, I don't feel great, but I do feel better. Just for all you people who are unsure, go to your doctor and find out. I still have a long road ahead of me, but at least I am on the right path for getting better. Once again thank you, you most likely saved my life.