Wow, thats some story Cody. Seriously that insired me even more to be a social worker/psycologist. Anyways Harrie, i think you should really just let it all out to your councelor. Just tell him/her everything thats bothering you and everything you do, trust me. Thats what your supposed to do, thats the councelors job. To help you no matter what is troubling you.. So i strongly insist for you to tell your councelor everything, i tried to help abit, being a temporary councelor over MSN. But thats not good enough, dont chicken out, theres no need to be scared.