I'm driving everyone close to me away.
soon enough i'm not going to have anyone.

And then i'll be free to fuck up myself all i want.

I'm scared.
of myself.
Of whats happening to me, whats going on inside my head.

I went to the liquor store today.
bought a mickey of whiskey.

Dont judge me.
I need it.
to stop the pain.
Slow down the thoughts.
stop me from shaking.

anything...