Read the ending if you just wanna see my book recommendation and the only reason i feel mildly happy.

Okay so i noticed recently that my hair issue has got MAJORLY worse in just a few months, and every day, I still think of ending my life though i wouldn't know how and nothing scares me more and i don't want to do it, but every day i will think of it at some point, especially now i noticed it has gotten worse!
And still basing around college, we're getting told we have 1 month...