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Success

Posted September 7th, 2008 at 03:45 PM by Underground_Network

At this point I feel as if success is impossible. Nothing is good enough. A 100 on a test means nothing to me anymore. It used to get me all happy and proud, but now I don't care. A 100 on a test isn't going to save thousands of lives, a 100 on a test isn't going to turn this world around. Maybe my goals ARE impossible.

I want to succeed, but I don't know what success is anymore. I used to think success was progress, but it seems it's not. Success is achievement, and to me, a 100 on a test is not an achievement. And at this point I don't even know what an achievement is. I don't know, I think I'd need to achieve something first for me to discover that it truly is an achievement.

Maybe progress is success, maybe I'm wrong, but I just don't know. I think because I feel as if I can't succeed that I'm just not motivated enough to do anything positive in/with my life. I just don't feel like doing anything.

I've always been selfless, but now I'm drifting more and more towards caring about nothing. I used to care about other people, even strangers more than myself, but now I just don't care about anyone at all, not even my family.

I just feel as if I was put on this Earth by accident, that I can't succeed, that I'm not meant to be here. I know how ridiculous that sounds, but that's what I feel like at this point...
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    Let me tell you something, Adam. I was like that all through high school as well. I still am like that a bit. I think succeeding is to not fail. (obviously) I see success as an achievement. Not necessarily progress. I do know how you are feeling. That is just how we are. I'm sorry that I can't really help you.
    Posted September 7th, 2008 at 07:10 PM by theOperaGhost theOperaGhost is offline
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    Ahmen
    Posted September 7th, 2008 at 07:34 PM by Atonement Atonement is offline
 

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