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Ensiferum
March 4th, 2009, 11:05 AM
During this last year, I've felt a big change in my train of thought and perception of the world. These "symptoms" has slowly gotten more noticable, and some days they make me feel really uncomfortable, to the point where I feel something is really wrong with my head. I am a 20 year old male, in case that matters. I also want to note that my mother is a diagnosed schizophrenic.

- I often have conversations with my self out loud. Sometimes these are about earlier conversations between me and people, other times I find my self rehearsing "future" conversations that I may have.
- I have a hard time concentrating, and remembering newly learned knowledge.
- I have a hard time expressing my thougts verbally. I can have perfectly phrased conversations in my own head, but when trying to express myself verbally, my sentences become an inarticulate mess.
- My mood is generally pretty neutral. I very rarely experience feelings such as joy, sadness or anger. This makes my life feel dull, and uninteresting.
- Sometimes I feel like I lack a personality. I have no real interests, or motivation to pursue any. I never feel enthusiastic about anything.
- I isolate myself. I always expect the worst from people, and if somebody laughs in my presence, I always think that they're laughing at me.
- I'm very sensitive to critisism, my brain completely shuts off when I recieve negative comments, and I'll remain hurt and silent for a long time, and keep replaying it in my head for hours.
- I'm a very anxious person, and I can get very nervous about small things.
- When I was younger, I felt that people could read my thoughts.
- If I go grocery shopping, and pick up and item from a shelf, I often feel like I picked the wrong one, and can spend up to about half a minute looking for the one that is right for me.
- I often feel disconnected from the real world, and can sometims wonder if the people and things around me are real.
- I can find myself laughing at petty things, that to most people aren't even funny.
- I find my self extremely insightful, and feel that I'm better than everybody else My thoughts can get a bit disillusional, where I feel that I could make the world a better place, that I could be some kind of savior.

These are just most of the things that I could come up with at the top of my head. The list could probably continue. The more I read about the negative symptoms, the more I can recognize myself and the state that I'm in.

I'm not trying to diagnoze myself as a schizophrenic, I just wanted to know, from somebody who knows something about this subject, if a talk with my doctor could be worth my, and his time.

IAMSAM
March 4th, 2009, 01:51 PM
The answer to your question is that, yes, a talk with your doctor and a possible referral to a mental health specialist is advisable.

Schizophrenia runs in families, there's a strong genetic component to it. And although that doesn't mean you will develop it, there's a better chance of it, so if you have any symptoms it's a good idea for you to respond quickly to them by talking to a doc and making sure that it's either some emotional/environmental issue that can be resolved thru therapy, or the early onset of schizophrenia, in which case early intervention improves treatment results.