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ValentinClarke
April 2nd, 2015, 01:28 PM
Okay, so I know that it's annoying to have someone think that they have a mental illness, but I just want to know. I'm worried you know.

For a couple months or so, I have had these feelings, of not being real, and I am so paranoid it is unbelievable. I always think that I am not real, nor is anyone else in my life, and that's how I have coped with many things in my life now. My paranoia is so bad, not just about people saying stuff behind my back, or looking at me, but I keep thinking that they can see and hear everything I think. And it creeps me out so much. The teachers at my school tried to assess me once, because I told one that I had heard this voice. This voice told me that "it's all my fucking fault". And they tried to assess me, but I hid it, I knew what to hide and how. I didn't want my mother to find out. I always smell things which aren't there, and I have had a couple occurances where I felt a hand go down my back, or stroke my leg, even when it's impossible. I even have another persona in my head, who is called Valentin. And he is the destructive part of me, and I argue with him in my head, and there's a third voice in my head aswell, which I don't know what it's called. But Valentin is literally like telling me that people are lying, that people are talking about me, that I need to punch someone. And my mood swings are so extreme. I switch at a little thing, and I will be so close to throwing something, then I will be fine again, I know this happens with hormones, but this doesn't feel like that at all.

Vermilion
April 2nd, 2015, 01:59 PM
You need medical help, it's the only way it will get better. It's good to see that you know something is wrong, but you need to take the next step and that is medical help.

Mil1dreded
April 2nd, 2015, 03:48 PM
You need medical help as has been said. You've invented a completely new personality which could be a split personality disorder, schizophrenia but I'm not an expert so I really advice getting mentally assessed then you can get the correct help.

ValentinClarke
April 3rd, 2015, 07:30 AM
You need medical help, it's the only way it will get better. It's good to see that you know something is wrong, but you need to take the next step and that is medical help.

You need medical help as has been said. You've invented a completely new personality which could be a split personality disorder, schizophrenia but I'm not an expert so I really advice getting mentally assessed then you can get the correct help.

Thanks for the advice, but is there anyway to do it on my own, so that my family doesn't know. I'm secretive like that.

Vermilion
April 3rd, 2015, 07:53 AM
Thanks for the advice, but is there anyway to do it on my own, so that my family doesn't know. I'm secretive like that.

Possibly how old are you ?

ValentinClarke
April 4th, 2015, 06:03 AM
Possibly how old are you ?

Fourteen nearly 15

Vermilion
April 4th, 2015, 06:46 AM
Yeah it's possible, If you can get an appointment with your doctor. They shouldn't tell your parents but I can't promise it. As I don't know what country your from I don't know how easy it is to get appointment. I'm in the uk so I don't pay or anything, it mite be different for you.

Abhorrence
April 4th, 2015, 10:32 AM
If you ever feel bad you should never ever question the fact whether it is bad enough to get help or anything. I spent three years of my life or so saying that I had nothing wrong with me and that my issues were not bad enough to get help. I lived three years in utter pain through my mind and I wish that upon nobody. You deserve help and even if it requires your parents knowing it is so important that you seek it.