I hate this so much right now.. (i post too much on here)

[Amphetamine]

Blinkyyyyyyy182: I fuckin hate myself
Blinkyyyyyyy182: HATE
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I'm fuckin useless
hopeless love616: what is it?
Blinkyyyyyyy182: my fast ass ran out of breathe
Blinkyyyyyyy182: breath*
Blinkyyyyyyy182: didn't even fuckin get half way to my grandmas
hopeless love616: *huggles*
Blinkyyyyyyy182: Don't deserve that
hopeless love616: yes you do
Blinkyyyyyyy182: no
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I don't
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I'm ganna hit my dad
Blinkyyyyyyy182: soo he can beat the fuck out of me
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I don't deserve to live
Blinkyyyyyyy182: anymore
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I can't even fuckin run .2 miles
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I hate myself
Blinkyyyyyyy182: for eating mc donalds
Blinkyyyyyyy182: and never leaving from my seat
Blinkyyyyyyy182: tomorrow I will run
Blinkyyyyyyy182: even if I pass out
Blinkyyyyyyy182: on the fuckin street
hopeless love616: do whatever makes you happiest
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I can't kill myself
Blinkyyyyyyy182: no sharp objects or weapons
hopeless love616: honey don't do that!
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I can't even if I wanted
hopeless love616: you better not
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I can't
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I want to
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I'm soo fuckin useless
Blinkyyyyyyy182: I hate myself ashley
hopeless love616: why? why do you hate yourself?
hopeless love616: i love you ok? and i don't like it when you get like this. i get upset.


He is making me sad. I don't like it when he is like this. I wish I could help him. He is so upset cuz he had to do some workout thing and it's like :?

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

remember how he treated you when you had a bad day? maybe you should extend the same courtesy

[Anonymous]

ashley, honestly..hes not right for you...im sorry to break it to you. im sorry i havent been talkign to you much...we need to start up the string of pms again...hehe

[Amphetamine]

:) yeah we should. i just sent you a pm.
but now he is doing better. :? he's on my last nerve.

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

let him go, if you want to be a happy person just let him go

[Amphetamine]

Now I have Nathan going on about how he wants to be with me and that's not helping and I don't want to be with Nathan if he keeps this up. :( Ugh. I hate people (most)

[<-Dying_to_Live->]

well the first thing you gotta do is breakup wiht wesley

[Amphetamine]

I want to, but then again, I don't. I like someone else, the only problem is is that he is far far away. Like over an ocean. But he likes me too. I don't know. He is coming to visit next summer so I'm like cool cuz Wesley will be away but yeah. Wesley did mention that while he was away I could find someone else for the 3 years. :? Who knows.