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jessie3
July 13th, 2014, 03:05 AM
So after being sexually abused by my uncle at age 8 I became more interested in sex, I didn't really notice it until i was about age 12 or so when I became fond of older men. I started fantasizing about men in there like late 30's and 50's doing me and my interest in sex started to grew again, i started to think about porn more and what it be like to be a gay porn star then all of a sudden I thought about prostituting, I came close to actually doing it but then I contacted the men who was driving on his way and made a lie to him about family coming over and then he turned around and left, luckily I hadn't giving him my address yet. I contacted him because I knew what I was doing was very wrong, but still at 15 I continued my purse at being a gay model but my interest in sex isn't as high as it was at 12.

I have a boyfriend now who I've been with for more then half a year and we plan on being together until our day on earth ends. Even if my attempt to become a gay model ends I still have the opportunity of one day being a husband and a father to our future kids.

So finally here's my question, has your abuse driven you to things you have or haven't done? Im thankful for my loving and caring boyfriend, because if it weren't for him I'd probably would of been out there as a prostitute or something else

1_21Guns
July 14th, 2014, 06:48 PM
Personally no, but I don't think it's unheard of. Everyone deals with things in different ways, I suppose it's just a coping mechanism and everyone has a different one.

Gottaloveaginger14
July 14th, 2014, 07:11 PM
My abuse led to a lot of my fetishes like bondage, father daughter role play and liking older guys

thatgothgirluknow
July 14th, 2014, 07:23 PM
mine mostly lead to my fear of being alone with older men and having visions of almost every older man i came in contact with raping or sexually asualting me also made me decide not to have any kind of relationship with a man till im older

Dalcourt
July 17th, 2014, 11:38 PM
Well, I kinda have a low self esteem and kinda never say no to a guy. I have random sexual contacts and never really question anything, for most people I'm just a slut...I'm not sure if it's cuz of my sexual abuse or just in my nature. How should I know what I would do differe if things were differently?

coolkid016
August 11th, 2014, 08:59 PM
Personally no, but I don't think it's unheard of. Everyone deals with things in different ways, I suppose it's just a coping mechanism and everyone has a different one.

thats true.. good point