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Solvez18
July 7th, 2016, 08:29 AM
Hey guys. I thought I'd just spill my mind here since I feel real left out in my life.

Nothing's been positive in my life lately. All the people I've known over the years from High School have grown up and found relationships that seem to be going swell. I've had one girl I was in a long-distance with who just had too much mental instability to maintain a relationship with. I found another girl today who I thought would be perfect for me but it's turned out she's with somebody who used to be my friend who I could never forgive for what he's done to me.

So much is all over the place in my life. I've always been treated poorly, never had real friends. I've had huge family issues and been living in the dark all my life. I can't meet new people and all I do is goto work everyday and come home to play games. Oh but I can't do that because I broke my PC like an idiot. I'm not a violent or mean person I'm just lonely and can't get anything right. I try to do something to the best of my ability and it never works and I just get shot down. I try to find someone to make me happy and it just never works. Barely lasts a month.

Nobody cares about me other than my family and I just feel like everytime I try to do something I'm punished. I've never thought of myself as someone worth bothering with and this isn't helping. Sometimes I feel like if there is such thing as a 'previous life' then I must've been one shit person to get punished this bad for how I am now. My Dad's not well mentally, I'm not able to talk to my family because they're a bit stubborn. I can't live with myself because I don't like myself. I've failed in school and don't see myself getting far in life. I feel like the world is gonna move on while I just sit back and watch..

Does anyone understand how I feel? I just keep trying & trying. I feel like I should just give up on everything because I feel like I'm being punished for trying to be positive..

Just JT
July 7th, 2016, 06:41 PM
I know exactly how you feel. It's a very lonely dark place, and you clearly feel very alone in this world. Well, not that I can offer you much advise on your life, you seem a bit older than me. But what I can say is from my own experience is that you can't just give up. Shitty times comes in people's lives, some longer than others. We just need to get past those times somehow.

I'd embrace what you do have, family, and talk to them more. Give more time for relationships. Solid relationships take time. My best friends I e had all my life. And I know I'm fortunate for that, most people don't have that.

In time, you'll meet people, don't dismiss an oprotunity as any sort of friendship or relationship based on some kinda first impressions, just be yourself and honest with yourself. That all you can do. Try and keep a positive outlook ok? I know it's not easy, maybe even talk to someone who can help more than we can here.

But someone's always here to listen ok?

Solvez18
July 8th, 2016, 01:00 AM
I know exactly how you feel. It's a very lonely dark place, and you clearly feel very alone in this world. Well, not that I can offer you much advise on your life, you seem a bit older than me. But what I can say is from my own experience is that you can't just give up. Shitty times comes in people's lives, some longer than others. We just need to get past those times somehow.

I'd embrace what you do have, family, and talk to them more. Give more time for relationships. Solid relationships take time. My best friends I e had all my life. And I know I'm fortunate for that, most people don't have that.

In time, you'll meet people, don't dismiss an oprotunity as any sort of friendship or relationship based on some kinda first impressions, just be yourself and honest with yourself. That all you can do. Try and keep a positive outlook ok? I know it's not easy, maybe even talk to someone who can help more than we can here.

But someone's always here to listen ok?

I appreciate your reply and your encouragement I remain positive. I don't want to make this difficult for anyone. I just need to take a break and there's nothing I can do but stand-by and watch the world revolve around me.

Just JT
July 8th, 2016, 03:50 AM
No need to apologize, that why the forum is here, I'm not bothered at all, I here, I'll listen, anytime...

jamie_n5
July 11th, 2016, 07:42 PM
I too know and feel your pain. I have periods of time in my life too where things look so down and I feel everyone and everything is against me. Luckily for me my life has taken a turn around finally. Try to keep a positive attitude and don't be afraid to approach other people and make friends. We all have been hurt or put down at times. Don't let it get to you. Hang in there things will get better.

Solvez18
July 14th, 2016, 01:28 AM
I too know and feel your pain. I have periods of time in my life too where things look so down and I feel everyone and everything is against me. Luckily for me my life has taken a turn around finally. Try to keep a positive attitude and don't be afraid to approach other people and make friends. We all have been hurt or put down at times. Don't let it get to you. Hang in there things will get better.

Thanks for the reply. I'm glad you have an understanding of how I feel. I'm just trying to get things done slowly in life right now. I've decided i'm just gonna focus on small things like finishing the computer I'm building and getting a car before I try socialising. I feel like I'm missing out on alot and have missed most my teenage years because of my lack of friends and the bad situations I've been in. I feel like it's not worth anyone getting to know me so I've kept quet. I'm just so lonely, I really do want to stay positive. It's just hard.

jamie_n5
July 14th, 2016, 10:55 AM
Well I am glad you have projects and goals. But please don't feel like you have missed out on your younger years. You have lived them just fine. I have lots of casual friends but only a small few close ones. So I am a bit of a loner too. Lucky for me is that I have a boyfriend. You will find people and happiness too eventually. So as I said before hang in there and try be positive.

Just JT
July 16th, 2016, 05:21 PM
Jamie_n is right... You might see a bunch of other kids you know who they are all hanging out together, but you'd be surprised to see how many are really trully good "friends". Ina group of 4-5 guys, you might find 2 that can say they are trully friends with each other. And the others are only friends by association. So don't judge on quantity, only quality, that's what matters.

I'd say I do have several friends, but, only 2 people irl I call friends, I can say I can tell them anything, and are the only 2 people in the world who know everything about me. Not my parents, therapist, lawyer, nobody.

That's the difference, and those friendships take time, lots of time, and talk. But also, small goals are good to. They lead to bigger goals....so keep talkin bro...