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himmypop
October 29th, 2015, 11:10 AM
When i was about 3, my mother started hitting me,mildly,
as i grew older,about 7 years old,My dad,threw a straw chair at my and called me A B***
That really hurt me, both ways,i think its even in my long-term memory now,I still remember it today(I forget everything).
Since i was only 7,i didn't feel depression or suicidal thoughts,i just kept the memory.
As a turned 11-12 and 13, my mother then took hitting me much more seriously,She threw a large wagon at me when i was going downstairs,I think i said something,She whispered you little B***, my shoudler was hurting for 4 days,
Again ,2 days ago my father violently hit my head,arms and legs,My little brother ate his stuff,BUT HE WAS SLEEP WITH IT IN FRONT OF HIM, leaving me with a bump,A very painful shoulder when lifted, and a very broken heart..
More:My father Kicked me in the stomach on the kichten floor.
My Mom also banged my head with Cutting board,it broke,easily,but it didn't hurt,thinking i killed alot of nerves
My mom hit me with a metal pole in the arm.
It's also Affects my poor 4 yr old sis and one 3 year old brother,they are also hit but not violety as me
When i was 3 my mom whipped me with a cord, BUT I WOULD NEVER KISS MY BROTHER LIKE HE WAS MY DUDE,MY DAD LIED!
Everytime i think about these,or get hit more,i want to get to the knife and hold it to my heart,i'm dead,but i drop it and run away.
I also learned to stay strong when hit and hold back my tears...

So thats all,that's why i think of killing myself and get depression.
I am still abused Verbally and physically to this day.

Cadanance00
October 29th, 2015, 03:53 PM
You need to go to the shcool counsellor and thll them what's going on. It's illegal what's being done to you and you and your siblings need to get placed in a home where somebody cares about you and will treat you well.

Vermilion
October 29th, 2015, 03:56 PM
Don't kill yourself. Please tell at your school or the local police

Legoboy
October 30th, 2015, 06:17 AM
My abuse didn't stop until my dad got caught out by hurting another kid at the same time as me. So now I realise I should have taken the advice Cadanance00 and twin have given you need to tell. Its really hard when you are afraid all the time but if you have younger brothers and sisters then sorry to say this but its on you to protect them from being next by being the one to fix it for them.

Cadanance00
October 30th, 2015, 08:43 AM
Legoboy makes an excellent point. When you do go to the counselor be sure to tell them that you can't go back now that you have gone to the authorities. You don't know what your parents will do, but it won't be good. Also tell them you're afraid they'll take it out on your siblings.

This is serious.

EmilySmith
October 30th, 2015, 02:17 PM
This is serious abuse, you should call to police. Trust me.

Dalcourt
October 30th, 2015, 09:30 PM
As the others said you need to tell someone about it to protect yourself and your siblings.

himmypop
October 31st, 2015, 08:30 AM
Legoboy makes an excellent point. When you do go to the counselor be sure to tell them that you can't go back now that you have gone to the authorities. You don't know what your parents will do, but it won't be good. Also tell them you're afraid they'll take it out on your siblings.

This is serious.

I guess i have to call someone..

himmypop
October 31st, 2015, 08:34 AM
yeah,but how am i supposed to tell the police,and my mom is my only real true parent that is in my house.
I'm scared to tell anyone in real life.

qede
October 31st, 2015, 12:41 PM
school counsellor, and then see what he advises you

Cadanance00
October 31st, 2015, 04:10 PM
Yes, counselor. They see this a lot. They know what to do.

wolf g
October 31st, 2015, 04:20 PM
don't thinking about killing your self if your parents hut you really never be weak and talk to them ask them why they do that to you if they stay hurting you talk the headmster on school to talk to them if they keep hurting you talk to the police
but don't forget talk to your parents as a family first then do what i and the others tell you and don't kill your self

Just JT
October 31st, 2015, 04:57 PM
Legoboy and at least one other member in this thread that I know are a couple people besides myself who can speak from personal experience about this. And everyone is giving you excellent advice. It's really really hard to do, but you need to stop this chain of violence in your family.

If you need to wait till Monday cause of school, then lay low, stay outa sight, but get to school, walk into the office and get to a guidance counselor, do not take no for an answer, demand it
Go to the principals office and speak to the principal, teacher, school nurses, anyone

Call the police today if you need, don't worry about where you will be etc, that's for the adults in your life to figure out for you right now

No joke, this is pretty bad abuse, I've been there, you need someone on your side....