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dreamofdante
November 26th, 2013, 09:31 PM
When I was six years old I used to live at my Mother's boyfriend's house and his daughter tried to have sex with me the one time. She got onto me and was caressing me but it didn't get far because he came in and I got in trouble for it. He also beat me on a daily basis and I'm traumatized by it...I think my sexual craving comes from my early awakening to it...

Blood
November 27th, 2013, 09:58 PM
That's a shame that she tried to do that to you. I'm really sorry.

I understand that you're traumatized by what happened to you, and that's only natural. All that's going to really help that is time and trying to move on with your life.

I don't want to make any assumptions or anything, but in some cases the victim becomes the abuser. I don't know what type of sexual cravings you're having but just try to keep them under control for the most part. Good luck.

dreamofdante
November 27th, 2013, 10:05 PM
My cravings are just having sex with a woman. I want sex bad. I would never rape or harm a woman. I promise you that. But thanks for the well wishes, doll.

Jessiibear
December 5th, 2013, 08:20 AM
Aww, what happened to you was NOT fair. You have every right in the world to be traumatized by it--as aforementioned, it is natural. But, you can either choose to be the victim or the survivor. Be strong, love.

Wanting sex is also natural. Perhaps you're right that early exposure to it has caused you to want it that much more. Who knows? Just be aware that you're not a freak or anything and that it wasn't your fault. It really wasn't.

dreamofdante
December 5th, 2013, 12:19 PM
Aww, what happened to you was NOT fair. You have every right in the world to be traumatized by it--as aforementioned, it is natural. But, you can either choose to be the victim or the survivor. Be strong, love.

Wanting sex is also natural. Perhaps you're right that early exposure to it has caused you to want it that much more. Who knows? Just be aware that you're not a freak or anything and that it wasn't your fault. It really wasn't.

That's true. :( I kind of wish it hadn't happened though because I think it's really affected me. I've been obsessed with sex since I was 8 and I still haven't had it so I'm pretty looney over the subject. I do feel that that particular incident as scarred sex into my brain and it won't leave. I guess I should keep going though...

Jessiibear
December 5th, 2013, 12:35 PM
That's true. :( I kind of wish it hadn't happened though because I think it's really affected me. I've been obsessed with sex since I was 8 and I still haven't had it so I'm pretty looney over the subject. I do feel that that particular incident as scarred sex into my brain and it won't leave. I guess I should keep going though...

It is, again, natural to be feeling this way. Of course you'd wish it never happened. It was horrible and must have made you feel pretty shitty, huh :( Humans get horny, it's a part of life. When I was very young (maybe like 4) I was exposed to porn and at a young age, I began experimenting with fantasies in my head and I touched myself a lot, fascinated by that sensation. So from a personal POV, I can see where you're coming from. Abuse has been a major part of my life as well.

I suggest you wait on sex. Wait until you find that perfect girl. It should make the experience so much more meaningful and enjoyable. But then again, we're all different. I don't think you had sex "scarred into your brain", I think that whole prospect just bloomed in you earlier because of it. Which is perfectly normal. Don't look at you being so horny as a bad thing, just make sure you don't do bad things because of it. :)

If you being so horny bothers you, there are over-the-counter things you could take to dumb down that desire. But I wouldn't recommend those. You're going to be horny, that's just part of being human.

dreamofdante
December 5th, 2013, 12:41 PM
It is, again, natural to be feeling this way. Of course you'd wish it never happened. It was horrible and must have made you feel pretty shitty, huh :( Humans get horny, it's a part of life. When I was very young (maybe like 4) I was exposed to porn and at a young age, I began experimenting with fantasies in my head and I touched myself a lot, fascinated by that sensation. So from a personal POV, I can see where you're coming from. Abuse has been a major part of my life as well.

I suggest you wait on sex. Wait until you find that perfect girl. It should make the experience so much more meaningful and enjoyable. But then again, we're all different. I don't think you had sex "scarred into your brain", I think that whole prospect just bloomed in you earlier because of it. Which is perfectly normal. Don't look at you being so horny as a bad thing, just make sure you don't do bad things because of it. :)

If you being so horny bothers you, there are over-the-counter things you could take to dumb down that desire. But I wouldn't recommend those. You're going to be horny, that's just part of being human.

That's the thing. I don't think I'll find anyone perfect for me. I'm just so different...So it's hard for me to wait and know that I might never find anyone...

Jessiibear
December 5th, 2013, 12:55 PM
That's the thing. I don't think I'll find anyone perfect for me. I'm just so different...So it's hard for me to wait and know that I might never find anyone...

I feel the exact same way. But you may regret doing something just to satisfy that temptation. You've waited this long... It's easier for me because my libido is shot. I've just been sexual abused so many times that I don't want low lives touching me and using me and exploiting me anymore. It's not fun and I'm like never horny.

I really don't believe I'll ever find "Mr. Right" (I stopped believing that fairy tale ages ago), but my vaginal virginity is the last thing I got. And so many men have tried (and almost succeeded in) taking that from me too.

I know guys (or did, anyway...) who were in their 20s or something and never had sex despite being so very horny all the time.

Not like this will help or anything, but you know Nicki Minaj? She's like 30 and apparently...still a virgin!

Don't be so hard on yourself. You are an amazing person. If I can see a spark in you by just typing to you, you must be special. Just because you don't put yourself on a pedestal doesn't mean someone else won't. :cool:

dreamofdante
December 5th, 2013, 01:08 PM
I feel the exact same way. But you may regret doing something just to satisfy that temptation. You've waited this long... It's easier for me because my libido is shot. I've just been sexual abused so many times that I don't want low lives touching me and using me and exploiting me anymore. It's not fun and I'm like never horny.

I really don't believe I'll ever find "Mr. Right" (I stopped believing that fairy tale ages ago), but my vaginal virginity is the last thing I got. And so many men have tried (and almost succeeded in) taking that from me too.

I know guys (or did, anyway...) who were in their 20s or something and never had sex despite being so very horny all the time.

Not like this will help or anything, but you know Nicki Minaj? She's like 30 and apparently...still a virgin!

Don't be so hard on yourself. You are an amazing person. If I can see a spark in you by just typing to you, you must be special. Just because you don't put yourself on a pedestal doesn't mean someone else won't. :cool:

That's surprising to hear about Nicki Minaj...What do you mean you see a spark? I've never heard that before.

Jessiibear
December 5th, 2013, 01:15 PM
That's surprising to hear about Nicki Minaj...What do you mean you see a spark? I've never heard that before.

Ikr? And it means you seem so awesome.

dreamofdante
December 5th, 2013, 01:16 PM
Ikr? And it means you seem so awesome.

Well thank you. No one else thinks so. :)